Monday, November 25, 2013

Changes...

Little did I realize when I wrote my last post that there would be yet another change in less than five years, as I now face, head on, a move back to Manning.  It is exciting and causing a bit of anxiety at the same time… There are good things, and things that I’m not too crazy about. But, what big decision isn’t riddled with the pros and cons?  Well, for some reason, this little thing that I wrote a few months after my dad passed away has been constantly on my mind…


I am not exactly sure what brought this writing back to my memory the last week or so but it has been heavy on my heart. Perhaps it is the upcoming holidays, which never fail to bring strong and vivid memories of my daddy and his passing and all the things that surrounded that time in my life. Perhaps it is the move. I am not sure. But, I do know that at the time I wrote this, I was devastated at the loss of a certain relationship. And now, almost five years later, I look around at the relationships that God has blessed me with, in the place of that one, and I am again astounded (Perhaps it is a little fear that I will lose a couple of those relationships that mean so much to me now that has brought this back to me so strongly…).

Looking back at this situation has been an amazing reminder during this time of upheaval and changes all around that no matter what a situation looks like, I have to remember that God knows the beginning and the end and I am held in the palm of His strong hand. I know that He has a plan, regardless of what I think about it or whether or not it is following the plan I had laid out myself… His plan is and always will be the best for me. And, it will probably be beyond what I could have even dreamed up for myself!

Anyway, this is the writing… have a happy Thanksgiving! And, thanks for reading. And, if you are struggling with grief this holiday season, know that there is always hope…


The Casualty of Grief...

Pain undeniable
Path uncharted
Hope dismayed and
Heart troubled
Walls built
Worship hard
Comfort unreachable
Concern unwanted

Unfamiliar emotions
Producing 
Twisted words
Leaving
Friendships lost
Relationships hindered and
Bonds broken

Reality unbearable
Rescue uncertain

The Father faithful
The Truth solid
The Word true

Life returns
Emotions stabilize
Bonds restored and
Forgiveness accepted

Hope renewed
Heart healed
Walls deteriorating
Worship returned
Comfort felt
Concern conveyed

Help offered
Heart shared
Yet
Friendships lost and
Relationships still hindered.