Little
did I realize when I wrote my last post that there would be yet another change
in less than five years, as I now face, head on, a move back to Manning. It is exciting and causing a bit of anxiety at
the same time… There are good things, and things that I’m not too crazy about.
But, what big decision isn’t riddled with the pros and cons? Well, for some reason, this little thing that
I wrote a few months after my dad passed away has been constantly on my mind…
I am
not exactly sure what brought this writing back to my memory the last week or
so but it has been heavy on my heart. Perhaps it is the upcoming holidays,
which never fail to bring strong and vivid memories of my daddy and his passing
and all the things that surrounded that time in my life. Perhaps it is the
move. I am not sure. But, I do know that at the time I wrote this, I was
devastated at the loss of a certain relationship. And now, almost five years
later, I look around at the relationships that God has blessed me with, in the
place of that one, and I am again astounded (Perhaps it is a little fear that I
will lose a couple of those relationships that mean so much to me now that has
brought this back to me so strongly…).
Looking
back at this situation has been an amazing reminder during this time of upheaval
and changes all around that no matter what a situation looks like, I have to
remember that God knows the beginning and the end and I am held in the palm of
His strong hand. I know that He has a plan, regardless of what I think about it
or whether or not it is following the plan I had laid out myself… His plan is
and always will be the best for me. And, it will probably be beyond what I
could have even dreamed up for myself!
Anyway,
this is the writing… have a happy Thanksgiving! And, thanks for reading. And,
if you are struggling with grief this holiday season, know that there is always
hope…
The Casualty of
Grief...
Pain
undeniable
Path
uncharted
Hope
dismayed and
Heart
troubled
Walls
built
Worship
hard
Comfort
unreachable
Concern
unwanted
Unfamiliar
emotions
Producing
Twisted
words
Leaving
Friendships
lost
Relationships
hindered and
Bonds
broken
Reality
unbearable
Rescue
uncertain
The
Father faithful
The
Truth solid
The
Word true
Life
returns
Emotions
stabilize
Bonds
restored and
Forgiveness
accepted
Hope
renewed
Heart
healed
Walls
deteriorating
Worship
returned
Comfort
felt
Concern
conveyed
Help
offered
Heart
shared
Yet
Friendships
lost and
Relationships
still hindered.
